Im thinking if should I sleep with my contact lenses on again. I've been sleeping with it on for 2 consecutive nights, taking it off for a short while during the day. I know its a bad habit to form but I really hate waking up with literally everything a blur. I can't even read the time on the clock from my bed to save my life. Most of the time, I have trouble finding my glasses which have not been updated and replaced since 1st year college. Since that time, my eyesight has increased from -5.00 to -6.00. Yes, I am legally blind. If someone were standing three meters away from me, I wouldn't even be able to notice the a single pimple as large as a 25 centavo coin. I went to school a couple of times without my contacts and without glasses(since I couldnt find them) and you could only imagine how terribly funny that went! I had so many people I didn't recognize waving at me across the hallway or at the street. I'd only identify them through their voice which greeted my name. Thats when I would smile and greet back, but if I didn't hear their voices, I'd squint a little to make out who that image could be. If I can't, either I'll say out loud, "Who are you!?". If there were instances I didn't greet back or seemed snobbish, chances are, I didn't see you! :)) Sorry!
Now see why its such a bother to take my contacts off? I'm not sure what side effects it could do to harm my eyes though but so far, my eyesight is still as terrible as it has ever been before. Its not normal for me to have it off. It feels weird when my eyes tear up when I'm not wearing it. Could this be a sign of abnormality?
I envy people with 20-20 eyesight. I don't think I've ever experienced having that. Ever since I was a girl, I've had eyesight problems. I think it was because I purposely and secretly wore glasses of my parents or relatives so I could have my eyesight damaged in order to get my mom to buy me spectacles. I was a scheming little brat and I always got what I wanted. And now, I'm suffering for it! :(
Now I almost don't care since Ive been so used to, I don't even feel and know what I'm missing out on. Except maybe when I go swimming; unless I have goggles on, I can't open my eyes underwater. I'd have to swim lapses with eyes closed - may sound bad at first but hey, this could be an advantage when you want to 'accidentally' bump into a sexy, toned, tanned, ab-fullicious swimmer. Unfortunately, I do not possess the audacity of slovenly promiscuous women.
Its also terrible and such a hassle when my contacts dry up and one of it suddenly falls out of my eye...or misplaced somewhere on the ball of my eye and I couldn't find it. I had a missing lens once and I was forced to go outdoors with only one contact lens which I pitifully placed on my left eye. Imagine, one eye with good vision and the other one half blind. It was disorienting and made me all dizzy . I felt so pathetic!! Like one of those loser careless dorks - lost, awkward and misunderstood (but always triumphs in the end...in movies at least.) . At the end of the day, I found out that it was in my eye all along, only hidden way up in the white part, beneath my eyelids. I wonder what would've happened if I didn't find it soon enough. Lucky me.
Even though wearing contacts has its own disadvantages, I would say it still has more advantages than downsides to it. For one, it hides the fact that you're visually weak. Two, its more aesthetically pleasing to look at than wearing thick glasses. And three, its ultimate function of all - it aids my pauperized vision.
I wonder who invented contact lenses. I'd have to thank him or her a thousand folds. What would I do without it?! I'm so appreciative for the invention of lenses and contacts, I even made a poem about it back in college entitled, "The World is Such a Lovely Place".
I have never felt like this before
You came and brought back light into my eyes
The eyes that never see the little things
Eyes that look right through whats in front of me
Now I know this is how the world is
Never been so awed by it beauty
What life have i been living
Never getting enough sunshine
It was only you who could change my view
The perfect you who taught me the essence of a leaf to a tree
And the petal to the flower
And the ant marching in the antline
Or the letter E in the word SWEET
Tis' the gentle you who gave me confidence
To leap large distances without doubt
To run wild fields without falling
To hold my head up high
To smile to others without fettering
To know what is and what is not
It is only you who could give me this joy.
Without complain, you guide me
Though invisible you may seem to others
They do not know theres an angel
holding on to me tightly
Its you who opened the heart inside me
And brought back the spark in my eye
You're the miracle God has given
The answer to my desperate prayers
What will I do without you?
I'd fall on the grass which would be nothing but green
Everything would be a blur, abstractly senseless
What am I without you?
Insecure...
Unprotected...
Vulnerable...
Blind.
Thank God for you, my dear contact lenses...
How dorky can you get huh?
Anyway, I have to go now. My eyes are tired and sore from looking at the laptop and its 2 in the morning. I have to sleep unless I want my eyesight to break its record once again.
Still wondering though if I have notifications in my FB. Maybe I'll peek for just a tinsywinsy while.
And still deciding if I should take these contacts off...
Maybe I should. I think I will.
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